courage

Happy 2019!

It’s been a while since I have wrote anything for this blog. To tell you the truth, the tips I gave in Conceiving a baby, conceiving a future: ups and downs and a few free tips. really worked out for me. I am pregnant and waiting to meet my little boy. I am now at week 37 and it always amazes me to feel that little spark of life inside my belly. I am priviledge to know that feeling. I am rarely excited about something but now I catch myself thinking of what he’ll be looking like, what will be his cycle of sleep and etc. I can’t wait to hold him in my arms and present him to his big bro.

So why did it take me sooooo long before posting anything new and pregnancy related on my blog? Simply, I don’t have the pregnancy that is very inspiring to write about. Maybe I realized just now that I should write about it to bring comfort to others going through «not so dreamy» pregnancies. Really, everybody is different and react differently to this big change and hormonal dance. For me it means very low blood pressure, weakness, all the symptoms of a burnout except for the sadness that generally comes along.

This summer was the hottest in a long time and I had to stay inside de whole time to prevent myself from fainting and scaring off my boyfriend with my health.

After that, I was unable to stand up for more than 5 minutes. Worthless to mention all the feelings of guilt and uselessness that came with this condition.

So, soon, I will be meeting with that new marvel of My world and forget all about the past few months. Life is wonderful and every moment deserves our full attention. In My next post, I will tell you about what I have learnt from this experience.

Until then, please tell me all about your not so perfect pregnancy. I am sure I am not Alone!

Take care 😉

Night time

I have never been a real morning person. I fake it because life is requesting of me that the days begin early. And it’s fine. I enjoy doing a lot of things in the morning to relax a bit in the afternoon, « savourer » a little sleep in a sun ray.

Every moment count

I have become a mother not so long ago and my cycles (day-night-sleep) have changed. Ever since, I realize everyday how life is about small things and my ability to make every moment count. For example, we I come home at night with my son, we don’t have much time together before he goes to bed. So, what do I do? I play with him until dinner time. I leave my phone in a drawer somewhere (unless I take pictures) and I am fully present with him, for us both. I don’t want to be angry at Time. I am presently reconsidering some choices that I made to allow me to spend more family time… I will get there.

After dinner it’s bath time and, then, we play again. Finally, he goes to bed and my wounded torture mother heart feels better because the evening mattered.

I apply the same mindfulness concept for myself. When the lights go off, it is the time for me to connect with my soul and to bond with nature.

Sometimes it happens all in my head when I review the day and consider if my decisions are align with my plan. Mostly in summer, I will enjoy a small walk in the warmth of the night to recharge my battery and connect with magic and mystery.

Connecting with myself every night has always helped me to stay strong and captain of my destiny. I am not alone now but I will never give up on Me and will continue to date myself every night. For my own good.

Et juste comme ça, la vie reprend ses droits. Les cycles sont à l’infini. Personne n’y échappe. La naissance, les rires, les épreuves, l’amour, la mort. La seule chose que l’on pourra décider sera en même temps ce qui demandera le plus d’efforts. Passer de ce que l’on croit que l’on attend de nous à ce que nous sommes, pour enfin devenir qui l’on veut.

Métamorphose; papillon; vie; changement; renouveau.

Alors, soyez disponibles à la vie.

Sortez de votre cocon et voyez toute cette énergie disponible à votre portée.

Soyez bons pour vous-même et faites le vœux de vous attirer les bonnes personnes pour grandir et les ressources matérielles en quantités suffisantes pour vivre confortablement. Laissez l’amour entrer dans votre vie et contaminer tous vos petits gestes.